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You should be in the honeymoon phase. You should be doing stuff like texting good morning and good night and talking at least once a day. If your communication is not good now it probably won’t get better.
Does she have something that takes up a majority of her time? It is finals session for college students. Could she be super busy?
The problem is more communication is the solution to your problem
please for the love of god do not go on tinder. im a lesbian woman and too many profiles are straight couples looking for a third and it’s exhausting. look for app made for that type of thing i beg of u
It takes a lot of practice, preferably with dildo unless you have a boyfriend, then go with that.
You have to be fully aroused/lubricated Whether it be your fingers, dildo or man's D, be in a position where the object/him is being angled upwards(toward the belly button) Good tempo is important as well. Find out what feels good for you You can edge yourself first, get close to an orgasm by clitoral stimulation, and then try for vaginal it could be easier to reach
Don't give him an ultimatum as that would be so unfair to him, instead, tell him that unfortunately you two will have to go y'all separate ways because you want to find a man who's like-minded. It may be nude, but you have to do it if you want to be happy.
Honestly? At this point get the test. You continuously denying your boyfriend one after the extremely sus position he found you and your friend in is only making you look more guilty. You need to set some firm boundaries with this male friend of yours as well moving forward. I'd be surprised if your boyfriend doesn't end the relationship honestly.
Look, I can forgive someone who cheated on their SO once. Just once. Shit happens and I don’t judge too harshly as long as they feel bad about hurting their SO and owned up to it and dealt with whatever consequences. But 2 whole years of cheating? Count me out.
I know the secret: you act like you don't care and then they actually come throwing all that stuff they say they'll do. It's because you are extending the “chase” mode.
The only problem is you have to legit not care and be able to “take it or leave it.” Otherwise you just end up trying to be the “cool girlfriend” which they can see right through and utilize to walk all over you.
Alternatively, you can luck out and find someone legit. Problem is you never quiiiiite trust their intentions even after nine years because you are mostly dead inside… Or so I've heard cough
I’m actually the dumped and she’s the dumper I think the way I phrased things were bad. She broke up with me and I still wanted to be with her. The pain in friendship is still too much even this long after our relationship. The fact I still haven’t gotten over in my mind is also unhealthy imo
Cheeks clapping. That sound when you mix really good macaroni with a spoon. Moans of course. Gack gack slurp slurp. And silence. And if you need to actually TALK, the only words I need to hear are “im bout to cum”. That's IT.
Simply put he has to be getting attention from somewhere else or doesn't feel like talking. I feel im just making u think he's moved on but when I like someone I want their attention like u and any change in that I get worried. Maybe ask if everything's ok since he doesn't text as much or since ur on a break there's no harm in getting attention from someone else.
I'm such a big softy and obviously quite naive. I just hope that one day all this gets easier .
In other words, you're human.
I'll share with you an experience of mine that I hope helps with added perspective. Years ago, I fell nude for a girl and thought I couldn't be happier. Everything was wonderful…until it wasn't. Things were always just a little short of being great. It took quite a while for the truth to come out that she was seeing other guys behind my back. Things ended quickly and I was heartbroken.
Then one night several months later the phone rang (this was years before the Internet). It was her calling to apologize for treating me poorly and to see how I was doing. I heard how much she admired me, missed me, and many other things that were music to my ears. We started back up again and this time it was different, it was better…until it wasn't…until it went right back to being the same as it was before. Yep, she was seeing other guys behind my back again.
We broke things off again and once again she called me months later with the same sweet words and assurances that everything would be different if I gave her another chance, which I did. She knew me so well and always knew exactly what to say. But my radar was fully on this 3rd time and it wasn't long before she was seeing other guys again.
That's when I had my epiphany moment. I was allowing myself to be her reliable backup — her Plan B guy. She was too insecure to be alone so whenever things went south with her latest bf, she would call me up and I would dutifully take her back. I kept taking her back because I desperately wanted to show her that I was worthy — I wanted to “win.” But you cannot win when you always finish in 2nd place.
I still remember vividly the feeling of finality and great escape I felt at that moment. I was finally done with her, told her so, and vowed never to allow myself to be put in that situation again.
Like the way you described yourself, I was “such a big softy and obviously quite naive.” Like you, I was human.
When I encourage you to move forward with your life, I speak from experience on that as well. A few years after ridding myself of the girl that saw me as an object available to fill her gaps between bfs, I met my wife of now almost 28 years. She isn't perfect and our relationship isn't perfect. But my previous “Plan B guy” experience allows me to appreciate my wife immeasurably.
There's an old country song by Garth Brooks called “Unanswered Prayers.” He sings about being at a hometown football game with his wife and running into the former gf whom he once thought was everything he wanted. He thought about the many times he prayed to God that they could be forever together and sings, “I couldn't help but think of the way things used to be.”
After chatting with the former gf for a while, he realizes “She wasn't quite the angel that I remembered in my dreams, and I could tell that time had changed me.” He concludes with, “And as she walked away and I looked at my wife, then and there I thanked the good Lord, for the gifts in my life. Some of God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers.”
Don't be so very hot on yourself, OP. You didn't do anything wrong. You have a soft, kind heart and this guy took advantage of that heart and is trying to do so again. Just keep being who and what you are and one day, you'll meet a guy that loves you just for being you. And when that happens, you'll be able to look back and think about your ex and see him for exactly who and what he is and realize that some of God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers.
I get youade some mistakes but you haven't learned because your behaviour is still toxic towards this man. Staying together for the sake of being “a family” is never a good idea. He is still in a relationship with someone else and although it sounds like he's trying to do the right thing it also sounds like he's not 100% certain being with you is the right decision. From what you've said so far it probably isn't the right decision. He's either going to come back single and try again with you or he's going to choose her and end things with you….or day he ended things and still stay with her anyway. Quite frankly this is a very messy situation that's probably going to go quite badly. You and he shouldn't be getting back together without at least doing some serious therapy and reflection apart.
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That's just fine, I guess it's always best to be comfortable sleeping alone first. So maybe start there, happy being alone and comfortable and caring for your own boundaries.
So it sounds kind of insane, but my dad had died like 2 months earlier so I wasn’t in a good place, I was walking my dog and he just appeared and waved at me but I was crying so just ignored him. Then my dog was being weird on a bridge and looking over, like someone he knew was there, so I messaged him asking if he was watching me walk over the bridge and he was basically like what the hell and just stopped talking to me
He wants KINKY sex, not just sex for connection and intimate connection. That's the problem here. Maybe she'd be more apt to have kinky sex if it involved her receiving an orgasm from the deal. ?
If she does not let you go to the shoots, you know what's up Take off work if you have to. Same for the “proofs” but you are only going to get to see what the other dude wants you to see. Same plot, but different characters. Sorry pal.
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I don’t think there is any advice that can be given except suck it up. You don’t want to leave, but he is crushing your self esteem. There is no changing someone like that so suck it up and deal with it. Be his peace.
My wife and I have a 14 year age gap and while it is two women (which may change people’s perceptions) I think you have to ask yourself “is anybody in this because they are fetishizing age.” I know for me (the older one) it was the opposite. My dating app filters cut off way above her age but we met at a bar and hit it off. I didn’t realize how old she was until the first official date and almost broke it off when I found out. In the end it wasn’t about fetishizing age for us and it works.
Breakup worthy? You sound crazy. Yeah it's disgusting but to breakup over a piss bottle you probably need therapy or something. I get the feeling your husband is walking on egg shells around your amazing personality. Dude said he's depressed to you, better go and post live! to reddit shaming him. I'd call you what you are but I'll get banned on here. It starts with the letter C though.
I actually did do this. I was like her 5th relationship, she’s also my ex now, it lasted about 5 months. She had terrible boundaries and there ended up being more things. I’m just scared I’ll get into another relationship and i won’t be able to trust the person. Like my ex never cheated but she just didn’t ever make me feel like a priority whether it was regarding other men or just hanging out together.
Yeah, I regret using the word 'push'. It's too evocative. I meant it in the consensual playful sense.
And I agree that they should talk, but it seems OP has avoided this, so while there are plenty of others suggesting a chat (or even a confrontation), I felt there was room to suggest trying one more attempt within the context of foreplay. If that doesn't work then an unavoidable chat is needed.
Tea light candles can help with mood setting while not costing much.
Also some people are just as happy to receive experiences as gifts instead of just things, if you can find something to do that you can afford but don't do regularly
I am not going to touch your relationship, just answer what you asked – how to be a better listener. It's more then just saying uh-huh, i hear you and stuff like that. The other person wants to know that you are really listening to them. So do active listening – sometimes kinda repeat back what they are saying in your own words “So you mean Freddie ripped the mask off the monster and it ended up being Mr Jones? wow!” – you can do a google search for “active listening” and it gives tips to show the other person that you really are listening and not just waiting to say what you want to say.
The dna tests only really go back to about 500 years and genes are diluted through the generations. Some of the dna tests can detect past genetic influence but Ghengis Khan isn't going to make OP half Asian. Being half anything usually means the parents are mostly that. It doesn't necessarily mean his mom cheated but it does imply that his recent ancestors are not European.
Bruh, that's a tough situation—I feel for you. That guy sounds beyond thirsty for attention, and it's not cool that he pursued somebody else's wife. But at the same time, your ex-wife clearly wasn't getting what she needed from your relationship whether it had to do with communication, affection, or something else. At the end of the day, it's tough but sometimes relationships just don't work out despite all of our best efforts. Don't let the situation color your view of all women—They're not all attention fiends, I promise lol. Keep your head high and focus on moving forward and finding happiness on your own terms, whether that's seeking therapy, finding new hobbies, or taking a break from the dating scene altogether.”
I grew up in an abusive household too. My normal meter is also warped. So I get it.
Please believe me when I say your bf's behavior isn't normal. It's actually concerning. Extremely concerning. He's punishing you for things that are outside of your control and why is he assaulting you in your sleep?
He knows you're not awake. He knows you talk in your sleep. He doesn't care. He's selfish. He wants what he wants and he'll get it from you whether you give permission or not. He's emotionally manipulating you by holding percieved slights over your head.
That's concerning.
You have a scholarship. Does your school have counseling services? You should take advantage of that. They may be able to help you make a plan to get away from him and stop depending on him financially.
You should be in the honeymoon phase. You should be doing stuff like texting good morning and good night and talking at least once a day. If your communication is not good now it probably won’t get better.
Does she have something that takes up a majority of her time? It is finals session for college students. Could she be super busy?
The problem is more communication is the solution to your problem
please for the love of god do not go on tinder. im a lesbian woman and too many profiles are straight couples looking for a third and it’s exhausting. look for app made for that type of thing i beg of u
No, no, no, NO, absolutely fucking no.
Run now that you can
? this should be a funny, intimate moment that cold become an inside joke… not a dramatic event that leads to her giving you the cold shoulder
It takes a lot of practice, preferably with dildo unless you have a boyfriend, then go with that.
You have to be fully aroused/lubricated Whether it be your fingers, dildo or man's D, be in a position where the object/him is being angled upwards(toward the belly button) Good tempo is important as well. Find out what feels good for you You can edge yourself first, get close to an orgasm by clitoral stimulation, and then try for vaginal it could be easier to reach
They will not leave, Chinese culture you look after your parents, they are here to stay if you let them in.
Don't give him an ultimatum as that would be so unfair to him, instead, tell him that unfortunately you two will have to go y'all separate ways because you want to find a man who's like-minded. It may be nude, but you have to do it if you want to be happy.
Honestly? At this point get the test. You continuously denying your boyfriend one after the extremely sus position he found you and your friend in is only making you look more guilty. You need to set some firm boundaries with this male friend of yours as well moving forward. I'd be surprised if your boyfriend doesn't end the relationship honestly.
Becareful what you wish for you might destroy your entire relationship….
Look, I can forgive someone who cheated on their SO once. Just once. Shit happens and I don’t judge too harshly as long as they feel bad about hurting their SO and owned up to it and dealt with whatever consequences. But 2 whole years of cheating? Count me out.
I know the secret: you act like you don't care and then they actually come throwing all that stuff they say they'll do. It's because you are extending the “chase” mode.
The only problem is you have to legit not care and be able to “take it or leave it.” Otherwise you just end up trying to be the “cool girlfriend” which they can see right through and utilize to walk all over you.
Alternatively, you can luck out and find someone legit. Problem is you never quiiiiite trust their intentions even after nine years because you are mostly dead inside… Or so I've heard cough
I’m actually the dumped and she’s the dumper I think the way I phrased things were bad. She broke up with me and I still wanted to be with her. The pain in friendship is still too much even this long after our relationship. The fact I still haven’t gotten over in my mind is also unhealthy imo
Cheeks clapping. That sound when you mix really good macaroni with a spoon. Moans of course. Gack gack slurp slurp. And silence. And if you need to actually TALK, the only words I need to hear are “im bout to cum”. That's IT.
I’d dump him. I don’t like that at all, gonna take me and my good heart and gtfo.
Simply put he has to be getting attention from somewhere else or doesn't feel like talking. I feel im just making u think he's moved on but when I like someone I want their attention like u and any change in that I get worried. Maybe ask if everything's ok since he doesn't text as much or since ur on a break there's no harm in getting attention from someone else.
He's not. He keeps it at a 1 armed hug and then backs away lol. Its really odd.
Looking at previous posts by OP, she wasn't invited at all. He could have actually said that, but he chose not to.
Sounds like you didn’t like her, you liked how more ‘mature’ you are because she was ‘innocent’. Weird kink, leave the girl alone.
I'm such a big softy and obviously quite naive. I just hope that one day all this gets easier .
In other words, you're human.
I'll share with you an experience of mine that I hope helps with added perspective. Years ago, I fell nude for a girl and thought I couldn't be happier. Everything was wonderful…until it wasn't. Things were always just a little short of being great. It took quite a while for the truth to come out that she was seeing other guys behind my back. Things ended quickly and I was heartbroken.
Then one night several months later the phone rang (this was years before the Internet). It was her calling to apologize for treating me poorly and to see how I was doing. I heard how much she admired me, missed me, and many other things that were music to my ears. We started back up again and this time it was different, it was better…until it wasn't…until it went right back to being the same as it was before. Yep, she was seeing other guys behind my back again.
We broke things off again and once again she called me months later with the same sweet words and assurances that everything would be different if I gave her another chance, which I did. She knew me so well and always knew exactly what to say. But my radar was fully on this 3rd time and it wasn't long before she was seeing other guys again.
That's when I had my epiphany moment. I was allowing myself to be her reliable backup — her Plan B guy. She was too insecure to be alone so whenever things went south with her latest bf, she would call me up and I would dutifully take her back. I kept taking her back because I desperately wanted to show her that I was worthy — I wanted to “win.” But you cannot win when you always finish in 2nd place.
I still remember vividly the feeling of finality and great escape I felt at that moment. I was finally done with her, told her so, and vowed never to allow myself to be put in that situation again.
Like the way you described yourself, I was “such a big softy and obviously quite naive.” Like you, I was human.
When I encourage you to move forward with your life, I speak from experience on that as well. A few years after ridding myself of the girl that saw me as an object available to fill her gaps between bfs, I met my wife of now almost 28 years. She isn't perfect and our relationship isn't perfect. But my previous “Plan B guy” experience allows me to appreciate my wife immeasurably.
There's an old country song by Garth Brooks called “Unanswered Prayers.” He sings about being at a hometown football game with his wife and running into the former gf whom he once thought was everything he wanted. He thought about the many times he prayed to God that they could be forever together and sings, “I couldn't help but think of the way things used to be.”
After chatting with the former gf for a while, he realizes “She wasn't quite the angel that I remembered in my dreams, and I could tell that time had changed me.” He concludes with, “And as she walked away and I looked at my wife, then and there I thanked the good Lord, for the gifts in my life. Some of God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers.”
Don't be so very hot on yourself, OP. You didn't do anything wrong. You have a soft, kind heart and this guy took advantage of that heart and is trying to do so again. Just keep being who and what you are and one day, you'll meet a guy that loves you just for being you. And when that happens, you'll be able to look back and think about your ex and see him for exactly who and what he is and realize that some of God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers.
I get youade some mistakes but you haven't learned because your behaviour is still toxic towards this man. Staying together for the sake of being “a family” is never a good idea. He is still in a relationship with someone else and although it sounds like he's trying to do the right thing it also sounds like he's not 100% certain being with you is the right decision. From what you've said so far it probably isn't the right decision. He's either going to come back single and try again with you or he's going to choose her and end things with you….or day he ended things and still stay with her anyway. Quite frankly this is a very messy situation that's probably going to go quite badly. You and he shouldn't be getting back together without at least doing some serious therapy and reflection apart.
If you're not looking for advice, I'd post this at r/offmychest
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That's just fine, I guess it's always best to be comfortable sleeping alone first. So maybe start there, happy being alone and comfortable and caring for your own boundaries.
So it sounds kind of insane, but my dad had died like 2 months earlier so I wasn’t in a good place, I was walking my dog and he just appeared and waved at me but I was crying so just ignored him. Then my dog was being weird on a bridge and looking over, like someone he knew was there, so I messaged him asking if he was watching me walk over the bridge and he was basically like what the hell and just stopped talking to me
He wants KINKY sex, not just sex for connection and intimate connection. That's the problem here. Maybe she'd be more apt to have kinky sex if it involved her receiving an orgasm from the deal. ?
If she does not let you go to the shoots, you know what's up Take off work if you have to. Same for the “proofs” but you are only going to get to see what the other dude wants you to see. Same plot, but different characters. Sorry pal.
This is abuse. Not pranks. You should be scared. You should tell your family everything, make a plan, and run.
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I don’t think there is any advice that can be given except suck it up. You don’t want to leave, but he is crushing your self esteem. There is no changing someone like that so suck it up and deal with it. Be his peace.
My wife and I have a 14 year age gap and while it is two women (which may change people’s perceptions) I think you have to ask yourself “is anybody in this because they are fetishizing age.” I know for me (the older one) it was the opposite. My dating app filters cut off way above her age but we met at a bar and hit it off. I didn’t realize how old she was until the first official date and almost broke it off when I found out. In the end it wasn’t about fetishizing age for us and it works.
I how OP is reading all the comments.
When a person like this shows you who they are, believe them.
I would tell him, as it's likely to be worse if you hide it but he finds out anyway.
TELL YOUR FIANCÉ TODAY via zoom/FaceTime/Video Call, and give her time to process this news.
Shes need to know if she’ll want to continue the wedding or call it off for now.
Sounds more like a vest or very close friend.
You sound awfully insecure which is likely due to age and length of relationship
Breakup worthy? You sound crazy. Yeah it's disgusting but to breakup over a piss bottle you probably need therapy or something. I get the feeling your husband is walking on egg shells around your amazing personality. Dude said he's depressed to you, better go and post live! to reddit shaming him. I'd call you what you are but I'll get banned on here. It starts with the letter C though.
You take it really slowly. Not complicated.
I actually did do this. I was like her 5th relationship, she’s also my ex now, it lasted about 5 months. She had terrible boundaries and there ended up being more things. I’m just scared I’ll get into another relationship and i won’t be able to trust the person. Like my ex never cheated but she just didn’t ever make me feel like a priority whether it was regarding other men or just hanging out together.
Knowing all of this and you got her pregnant…jfc.
Sounds like the best bet is childcare and both parents work to pay for childcare. Even if she stays home, put the baby in daycare for enrichment.
Yeah, I regret using the word 'push'. It's too evocative. I meant it in the consensual playful sense.
And I agree that they should talk, but it seems OP has avoided this, so while there are plenty of others suggesting a chat (or even a confrontation), I felt there was room to suggest trying one more attempt within the context of foreplay. If that doesn't work then an unavoidable chat is needed.
Tea light candles can help with mood setting while not costing much.
Also some people are just as happy to receive experiences as gifts instead of just things, if you can find something to do that you can afford but don't do regularly
I am not going to touch your relationship, just answer what you asked – how to be a better listener. It's more then just saying uh-huh, i hear you and stuff like that. The other person wants to know that you are really listening to them. So do active listening – sometimes kinda repeat back what they are saying in your own words “So you mean Freddie ripped the mask off the monster and it ended up being Mr Jones? wow!” – you can do a google search for “active listening” and it gives tips to show the other person that you really are listening and not just waiting to say what you want to say.
You’re being way too generous
Ask yourself if you're going to forgive her the next time she does it, too.
The dna tests only really go back to about 500 years and genes are diluted through the generations. Some of the dna tests can detect past genetic influence but Ghengis Khan isn't going to make OP half Asian. Being half anything usually means the parents are mostly that. It doesn't necessarily mean his mom cheated but it does imply that his recent ancestors are not European.
This seems like a fetish post.
Why did you stay with someone where you asked them to be exclusive and then they fucked a guy one last time while they were still “free?”
Does that say to you that you are the love of her life?
Definitely sexually incompatible. I’m giving it until the end of year tbh
Ouch. Well, I can't lie, that's not a good sign.
Sorry, at this point, you just gotta let it go until if and when he responds.
Bruh, that's a tough situation—I feel for you. That guy sounds beyond thirsty for attention, and it's not cool that he pursued somebody else's wife. But at the same time, your ex-wife clearly wasn't getting what she needed from your relationship whether it had to do with communication, affection, or something else. At the end of the day, it's tough but sometimes relationships just don't work out despite all of our best efforts. Don't let the situation color your view of all women—They're not all attention fiends, I promise lol. Keep your head high and focus on moving forward and finding happiness on your own terms, whether that's seeking therapy, finding new hobbies, or taking a break from the dating scene altogether.”
Your not in a relationship anymore.
She doesn’t reply, so at best you are friends, more likely acquaintances.
So send her a final text message.
Tell her that as she’s not got time to bother to call or text, that you don’t have time to put up with her, so it’s over.
You know, if you were raped, meaning you did not willingly or knowingly have sex with her, your ex might see that as a reason to reconcile
I grew up in an abusive household too. My normal meter is also warped. So I get it.
Please believe me when I say your bf's behavior isn't normal. It's actually concerning. Extremely concerning. He's punishing you for things that are outside of your control and why is he assaulting you in your sleep?
He knows you're not awake. He knows you talk in your sleep. He doesn't care. He's selfish. He wants what he wants and he'll get it from you whether you give permission or not. He's emotionally manipulating you by holding percieved slights over your head.
That's concerning.
You have a scholarship. Does your school have counseling services? You should take advantage of that. They may be able to help you make a plan to get away from him and stop depending on him financially.