Understand your choices. What you’re feeling isn’t wrong especially at this age but you’re right about her not being at fault either. But it’s not as simple as saying ‘ok I’ll wait’ and then still secretly expect things from her. If you choose to wait, you need to fully understand what you’re signing up for, aka, be fully patient until she is ready at a future date TBD. There’s no way to know when she’ll be ready, and by choosing to wait, you have accepted that.
So honestly as valid as your feelings are it’s still not exactly fair for you to resent or distance from her because of this, as you’re the one choosing to wait so your expectations should be straightened. It’s okay that you’re a teenage boy and horny. Some people experience it more than others. But it’s not fair to treat her any different because of it.
So if you really don’t think you can wait without building up resentment, and you actually love her, do the right thing and end it. It’s better to not hurt her than to build up a ton of hot feelings and end things badly, or worse, someday fail to resist the urges and cheat on her.
I’m not saying breaking up is the only way to go though. Some things that may help with the resentment:
Understand that her not being ready may not be about you. Sex is a big deal to some people, especially if she’s virgin.
There are other ways to get the urges out without actually having sex
You’re not alone, lol. And this likely won’t be an isolated case, you will meet some women who are super fond of sex and others being less so in the future. Even in the adult world, many people need to ‘deal with it’ a little because their partner is less needy than them in this regard but they love each other.
“Boyfriend of 4 years”
Uhhh ..you were 15 when he was 19?
Drake? Is that you ??
Understand your choices. What you’re feeling isn’t wrong especially at this age but you’re right about her not being at fault either. But it’s not as simple as saying ‘ok I’ll wait’ and then still secretly expect things from her. If you choose to wait, you need to fully understand what you’re signing up for, aka, be fully patient until she is ready at a future date TBD. There’s no way to know when she’ll be ready, and by choosing to wait, you have accepted that.
So honestly as valid as your feelings are it’s still not exactly fair for you to resent or distance from her because of this, as you’re the one choosing to wait so your expectations should be straightened. It’s okay that you’re a teenage boy and horny. Some people experience it more than others. But it’s not fair to treat her any different because of it.
So if you really don’t think you can wait without building up resentment, and you actually love her, do the right thing and end it. It’s better to not hurt her than to build up a ton of hot feelings and end things badly, or worse, someday fail to resist the urges and cheat on her.
I’m not saying breaking up is the only way to go though. Some things that may help with the resentment:
Understand that her not being ready may not be about you. Sex is a big deal to some people, especially if she’s virgin.
There are other ways to get the urges out without actually having sex
You’re not alone, lol. And this likely won’t be an isolated case, you will meet some women who are super fond of sex and others being less so in the future. Even in the adult world, many people need to ‘deal with it’ a little because their partner is less needy than them in this regard but they love each other.