Yesterday, the therapist I am going to mentioned that my SO is the one that maybe needs therapy too. And is treating me unfairly by making me be extremely tough on myself, changing the perception that I have of myself.
there is your answer right there.
don't feel safe in this relationship anymore, at the same time I don't know how to go from here. Or even how to end it.
“hey, its over..have a nice life”'..then you block the person and move on with life…no need to send me any reply back with endless reasons why you can't do this.
From experience… the idea of leaving or making any change feels so big and much harder than it is. When you are ready, and give yourself a push, it'll be work but eventually it'll fall into place and you will be able to breath again. Leaving an abuser will be work, but it will be way less stressful to take care of yourself than to tip toe around someone else. When you treat yourself well, you will appreciate it way more than he has.
OP, if this is really what you want, it’s time to face the fact that it’s not going to happen with him.
Either accept that staying with him means not having marriage/kids, or move on.
You will regret wasting more time with him.
Why haven’t you talked to your partner about it?
Yesterday, the therapist I am going to mentioned that my SO is the one that maybe needs therapy too. And is treating me unfairly by making me be extremely tough on myself, changing the perception that I have of myself.
there is your answer right there.
don't feel safe in this relationship anymore, at the same time I don't know how to go from here. Or even how to end it.
“hey, its over..have a nice life”'..then you block the person and move on with life…no need to send me any reply back with endless reasons why you can't do this.
He agreed with me though. And I originally said that because of the way he was acting towards me: like he didn’t want to talk to me after I left.
From experience… the idea of leaving or making any change feels so big and much harder than it is. When you are ready, and give yourself a push, it'll be work but eventually it'll fall into place and you will be able to breath again. Leaving an abuser will be work, but it will be way less stressful to take care of yourself than to tip toe around someone else. When you treat yourself well, you will appreciate it way more than he has.