Therapy and no one is perfect. Have a goal, do things, block the other person. Sitting and thinking is what makes you go down then limit that as much as possible. Take your recovery in pieces come to terms with one thing at a time. Also being nice to yourself helps. repeat one nice thing after a while when it stops sucking to get through the repetition add another one and so on and so on.
There are a few medical conditions that can cause persistent irritation, but to answer the question :
Is there any coming back from this feeling?
No. Even if she has some issue and it is rectified, this has gone on for so long that you no longer like her. Repairing her problem will not undo the damage she has done to you.
If we pretend she reverts to her old behavior tomorrow, you will still remember all her tirades and abuse. You will not be able to interact the same anymore.
Are you sure they really have an open relationship? Or is once a month as much as he can get away with (without her suspecting infidelity)?
In general, I would advise making sure you aren't being duped or catching feels for him.
Leave her alone, like no contact. You don’t believe her and are victim blaming. The best thing for her is for you to get out of her life.
Therapy and no one is perfect. Have a goal, do things, block the other person. Sitting and thinking is what makes you go down then limit that as much as possible. Take your recovery in pieces come to terms with one thing at a time. Also being nice to yourself helps. repeat one nice thing after a while when it stops sucking to get through the repetition add another one and so on and so on.
Thank you
There are a few medical conditions that can cause persistent irritation, but to answer the question :
Is there any coming back from this feeling?
No. Even if she has some issue and it is rectified, this has gone on for so long that you no longer like her. Repairing her problem will not undo the damage she has done to you.
If we pretend she reverts to her old behavior tomorrow, you will still remember all her tirades and abuse. You will not be able to interact the same anymore.