As a daughter of a narcissist parent who suffered years of psychological and emotional abuse that has destroyed me to this day…. They don’t change, they only escalate. My father didn’t start abusing my mother until the night they got married, after 7 years of dating. 2 kids later she was too scared to leave and stayed for 20 years in silence. Nobody believed her as he “seems like such a good guy”. Still after decades of being directly told what he has done wrong and how it is not acceptable, he still leaves me voicemails guilt tripping me for cutting contact and has never even asked me “how are you”. The emotional turmoil this has left me with, manifests also in physical trauma. Prolonged fight or flight response has me in constant anxiety mode. I have C-PTSD. It’s not worth it. As soon as he does anything of concern (which it sounds like he already has) I’d get out
I’m so so sorry that you experienced this. You seem so sweet for not wanting to hurt his feelings, but I want you to know that your decisions about what happens to your body should ALWAYS take priority over anyone else’s feelings.
You should not be going through with IVF unless you as an individual absolutely 100% want to do it. No one should be pressuring you into it, the potential father included. Find a way to communicate that to him – a conversation, an email, a handwritten letter, whatever it needs to be. He needs to understand how you feel, and he needs to accept it. If he can't accept it, you shouldn't be having children with him anyway. I'm sorry you're struggling, and for the situation you're in. I hope it works out ok.
Your friends and family who love you and want good things for you are advising you to break up with him. I think they're right, also ultimatum territory is when things are actually over. You're on a merry go round of pain that you don't wanna get off but people are begging you too. None of your problems are fixable if they are still the same problems after 8 years. Its only hot to say no when you have no resolve. Love is literally not enough. Okay cool you love him but he's hurting you over and over like someone who doesn't like you would.
True, what I meant were the love languages in which we perceive love. I’m not trying to sneak getting what I want. If I really want flowers, I buy them for cheap at the grocery store and make my own arrangement. And I never ask for anything expensive as that makes me uncomfortable. I just like things that are like “hey, I saw this and thought of you” and like I said, that could be flowers from a field for free. And for the birthday it’s a bit complicated. I admitted to him that I have a childish complex when it comes to my birthday and that certain things are important to me. I’ve noticed that it’s important to me that the people that I love wish me a happy birthday and I definitely love receiving a card. I just want to feel loved on my birthday, I think. So I was a bit disappointed since I had communicated how I feel about my birthday multiple times especially since I knew I’d be spending it without family and I’d be sad about it. A lot of people don’t care about their birthdays as they get older but in that aspect, I think I remained rather childish. But again, I’m not trying to sneak getting what I want, we even have an inside joke that I’m his sugar mama cause I keep buying him dinner and a few presents here and there lol
I dated someone for almost 2 years who had a very promiscuous past, turned out the past bled into the present. He had a best friend (female) from high school who he had dated in the past. Something didn’t feel right about it. I tried to chalk it up to my own insecurities so I just talked through it in therapy. Turns out my gut was right, he cheated on me with her and others.
Sometimes gut feelings transcend the evidence, until they don’t. You need to make a decision either way. My decision was to trust him, despite my gut feeling but given the lack of evidence, knowing that I might get hurt. Then I made the decision to end it when the cheating came out. It will hurt either way so don’t let that keep you from making a decision.
Well, apparently, she has no concern of the possibility she will be back in her country for years if she continues to sleep with other guys while marriage to you.
Still, your best bet is to find a lawyer with UK immigration law experience as they can advise you on the options open to you. Your marriage is covered by the country of domicile.
Ur husband lack communication, but i can see why he is annoyed. I had a gf i used to live with who had depression. I understood it was hard for her to do the chores at home, but you can't use that excuse to just not do it even for a couple of days. I have my responsibility, and you do too. Pull your own weight. Imagine if one day he's like im depressed and i dont wanna work for 2 days just because i feel like it. You gotta do what you gotta do and contribute to the relationship. If you dont, do you really expect a partner to be happy?
Also, it's really annoying from his POV that he works and pays his bill and your bill, and he comes to a not so clean house. It would make him feel like ur not doing ur part of the relationship. If you dont like it, then go get a job and contribute somehow. He prob sees you as a burden at this point. No one wants to take care of a person who doesn't do their part.
Shower sex.
As a daughter of a narcissist parent who suffered years of psychological and emotional abuse that has destroyed me to this day…. They don’t change, they only escalate. My father didn’t start abusing my mother until the night they got married, after 7 years of dating. 2 kids later she was too scared to leave and stayed for 20 years in silence. Nobody believed her as he “seems like such a good guy”. Still after decades of being directly told what he has done wrong and how it is not acceptable, he still leaves me voicemails guilt tripping me for cutting contact and has never even asked me “how are you”. The emotional turmoil this has left me with, manifests also in physical trauma. Prolonged fight or flight response has me in constant anxiety mode. I have C-PTSD. It’s not worth it. As soon as he does anything of concern (which it sounds like he already has) I’d get out
I’m so so sorry that you experienced this. You seem so sweet for not wanting to hurt his feelings, but I want you to know that your decisions about what happens to your body should ALWAYS take priority over anyone else’s feelings.
You should not be going through with IVF unless you as an individual absolutely 100% want to do it. No one should be pressuring you into it, the potential father included. Find a way to communicate that to him – a conversation, an email, a handwritten letter, whatever it needs to be. He needs to understand how you feel, and he needs to accept it. If he can't accept it, you shouldn't be having children with him anyway. I'm sorry you're struggling, and for the situation you're in. I hope it works out ok.
It's not the US, most places do not allow self defense, including the UK
I don't think you've worked through nearly all of your issues.
Your friends and family who love you and want good things for you are advising you to break up with him. I think they're right, also ultimatum territory is when things are actually over. You're on a merry go round of pain that you don't wanna get off but people are begging you too. None of your problems are fixable if they are still the same problems after 8 years. Its only hot to say no when you have no resolve. Love is literally not enough. Okay cool you love him but he's hurting you over and over like someone who doesn't like you would.
Wear you down as in being on the receiving end of it? Last thing I want is to push her away. How can I say this or bring it up?
True, what I meant were the love languages in which we perceive love. I’m not trying to sneak getting what I want. If I really want flowers, I buy them for cheap at the grocery store and make my own arrangement. And I never ask for anything expensive as that makes me uncomfortable. I just like things that are like “hey, I saw this and thought of you” and like I said, that could be flowers from a field for free. And for the birthday it’s a bit complicated. I admitted to him that I have a childish complex when it comes to my birthday and that certain things are important to me. I’ve noticed that it’s important to me that the people that I love wish me a happy birthday and I definitely love receiving a card. I just want to feel loved on my birthday, I think. So I was a bit disappointed since I had communicated how I feel about my birthday multiple times especially since I knew I’d be spending it without family and I’d be sad about it. A lot of people don’t care about their birthdays as they get older but in that aspect, I think I remained rather childish. But again, I’m not trying to sneak getting what I want, we even have an inside joke that I’m his sugar mama cause I keep buying him dinner and a few presents here and there lol
I dated someone for almost 2 years who had a very promiscuous past, turned out the past bled into the present. He had a best friend (female) from high school who he had dated in the past. Something didn’t feel right about it. I tried to chalk it up to my own insecurities so I just talked through it in therapy. Turns out my gut was right, he cheated on me with her and others.
Sometimes gut feelings transcend the evidence, until they don’t. You need to make a decision either way. My decision was to trust him, despite my gut feeling but given the lack of evidence, knowing that I might get hurt. Then I made the decision to end it when the cheating came out. It will hurt either way so don’t let that keep you from making a decision.
Maybe she needs a probiotic tablet? Her stomach might be unbalanced
Well, apparently, she has no concern of the possibility she will be back in her country for years if she continues to sleep with other guys while marriage to you.
Still, your best bet is to find a lawyer with UK immigration law experience as they can advise you on the options open to you. Your marriage is covered by the country of domicile.
Just giving you a hot time lol
Sorry I don’t have any real advice to your situation, best of luck!
Or be able to sleep within the next 8 hours…
Ur husband lack communication, but i can see why he is annoyed. I had a gf i used to live with who had depression. I understood it was hard for her to do the chores at home, but you can't use that excuse to just not do it even for a couple of days. I have my responsibility, and you do too. Pull your own weight. Imagine if one day he's like im depressed and i dont wanna work for 2 days just because i feel like it. You gotta do what you gotta do and contribute to the relationship. If you dont, do you really expect a partner to be happy?
Also, it's really annoying from his POV that he works and pays his bill and your bill, and he comes to a not so clean house. It would make him feel like ur not doing ur part of the relationship. If you dont like it, then go get a job and contribute somehow. He prob sees you as a burden at this point. No one wants to take care of a person who doesn't do their part.