There are no magical words that will change this man to be the boyfriend you want him to be. No one will be able to give you what you are looking for here because he fucking sucks.
He likes who he is and making you feel bad about yourself is how he keeps you from walking away. It is how he keeps control of you.
Im not saying this to hurt your feelings. I'm saying this because most people have absolutely horrible partners at least once in their life. The important lesson to grasp from those relationships is to learn to walk away from someone/something you love if they are bad for you.
Again, look at your post history. This guy fucking sucks. You love him, and he constantly treats you like shit. He will get worse. If you don't choose to walk for your own peace of mind, then when he finally does, the next guy is significantly more likely to just be him but worse.
Life's going to keep throwing learning opportunities at you until the lesson sticks. Bad man? Walk away. Everyone here is telling you the short version of this.
Simply put the reason why you are bothered, why you are confused and why do you even care is solely down to the fact that you never properly separated from each other, you didn’t actually break up with each other properly.
Because you have children together it makes it all the more difficult because you can’t totally separate and break up with each other in a clean way that a couple without kids are able to.
Because you have kids you are always going to have some sort of contact with each other and a connection for life. The fact that when you did break up and he came to see the kids he stayed over at yours and inevitably you both had sex with each other and basically you went from being together in a relationship to breaking up and being together with each other but just living in different places and you were only broken up in name only.
That’s why you feel like this and it wasn’t just sex between you both because you never had a clean break from each other.
Regardless of what happens now with his new girlfriend, whether it lasts or not or whether he does resume coming back to seeing his kids or not you need to put some significant boundaries in place to protect yourself in the future from this situation happening again and you feeling like this. I would suggest the following few boundaries;
1) He never ever stays over at your place no matter what. It doesn’t matter if he has missed the last train or bus home, it doesn’t matter if his car won’t start, it doesn’t matter whatever other possible reason, He never ever stays over at yours.
2) Any communication that you have with him and he has with you is only to be about the kids and nothing else. Not even a “I HOPE THAT YOU ARE OKAY, I just wanted to let you know that your son is going to his nans this weekend so you can have him the following weekend” so no chit chat and no messages about your kids with a kiss or two at the end.
3) When it’s his turn to have the kids then you either drop them off at your parents house or his parents house for him to collect them and he drops them off back there for you to collect them.
You need to put these boundaries in place to break the cycle and connection between you both so you truly separate from each other
The fight started very early in the morning. Nothing I would ever think of ending a relationship over. It was over money. She asked if I had 200 to cover rent. when I had a solution for that, she then had asked about her 1500 car payment, because she had just bought a car, and was expecting me to help pay it. I left the room in a huff, being very stressed and not trying to argue, I then mumbled “I'm gonna kill myself” in another room, which she had heard, and that's when she stormed out with her dogs, leaving me forever. not that I want to get back together, but I can't fathom why this all happened and its been stewing in my head for years. I can't get over it.
Idk if he didn’t want to get married why would he suggest we get married at a courthouse?
How can I go to jail if there’s no proof. Can she do that?
Very few, if any people are NOT blindsided by cheating and in almost every case, mine as well, they believed everything was amazing.
If fact most cheaters do it to people who love them unconditionally. Just fucking weird.
Two kinds of people in this world, those that do, those that don't and those that do, always have an excuse.
I'm all for it but she has this and that stuff to do plus the kids
I'm gonna just address what you want to see.
There are no magical words that will change this man to be the boyfriend you want him to be. No one will be able to give you what you are looking for here because he fucking sucks.
He likes who he is and making you feel bad about yourself is how he keeps you from walking away. It is how he keeps control of you.
Im not saying this to hurt your feelings. I'm saying this because most people have absolutely horrible partners at least once in their life. The important lesson to grasp from those relationships is to learn to walk away from someone/something you love if they are bad for you.
Again, look at your post history. This guy fucking sucks. You love him, and he constantly treats you like shit. He will get worse. If you don't choose to walk for your own peace of mind, then when he finally does, the next guy is significantly more likely to just be him but worse.
Life's going to keep throwing learning opportunities at you until the lesson sticks. Bad man? Walk away. Everyone here is telling you the short version of this.
Dump him.
Simply put the reason why you are bothered, why you are confused and why do you even care is solely down to the fact that you never properly separated from each other, you didn’t actually break up with each other properly.
Because you have children together it makes it all the more difficult because you can’t totally separate and break up with each other in a clean way that a couple without kids are able to.
Because you have kids you are always going to have some sort of contact with each other and a connection for life. The fact that when you did break up and he came to see the kids he stayed over at yours and inevitably you both had sex with each other and basically you went from being together in a relationship to breaking up and being together with each other but just living in different places and you were only broken up in name only.
That’s why you feel like this and it wasn’t just sex between you both because you never had a clean break from each other.
Regardless of what happens now with his new girlfriend, whether it lasts or not or whether he does resume coming back to seeing his kids or not you need to put some significant boundaries in place to protect yourself in the future from this situation happening again and you feeling like this. I would suggest the following few boundaries;
1) He never ever stays over at your place no matter what. It doesn’t matter if he has missed the last train or bus home, it doesn’t matter if his car won’t start, it doesn’t matter whatever other possible reason, He never ever stays over at yours.
2) Any communication that you have with him and he has with you is only to be about the kids and nothing else. Not even a “I HOPE THAT YOU ARE OKAY, I just wanted to let you know that your son is going to his nans this weekend so you can have him the following weekend” so no chit chat and no messages about your kids with a kiss or two at the end.
3) When it’s his turn to have the kids then you either drop them off at your parents house or his parents house for him to collect them and he drops them off back there for you to collect them.
You need to put these boundaries in place to break the cycle and connection between you both so you truly separate from each other
The fight started very early in the morning. Nothing I would ever think of ending a relationship over. It was over money. She asked if I had 200 to cover rent. when I had a solution for that, she then had asked about her 1500 car payment, because she had just bought a car, and was expecting me to help pay it. I left the room in a huff, being very stressed and not trying to argue, I then mumbled “I'm gonna kill myself” in another room, which she had heard, and that's when she stormed out with her dogs, leaving me forever. not that I want to get back together, but I can't fathom why this all happened and its been stewing in my head for years. I can't get over it.