My life got better when I removed my parents and they weren't nearly as bad as yours.
Not everyone seems capable of doing it but you need to at least recognize it's an option. Sometimes people we care about are only capable of bringing negativity into our lives now and it's worth stepping back.
Part of what made it better to leave is that I was reminded of the awful things they supported/represented whenever I was with them. That's not good for anybody. I'd prefer to not allow positive memories get swamped out by horrible nonsense. And at the same time, they can't claim me as being in their lives anymore. That may seem minor but it matters. There should be consequences for being a bad person and not having me in their lives is one of them.
I mean it all sounds very nice not letting painful experiences define you.
But they do. No-one comes out of painful experiences unscathed, to an extent we can come out of these experiences better, but there will always be a negative element. For example; might be more empathetic, but find it difficult if we feel someone doesn't like us.
Understanding that is important, but learning from the experience and setting boundaries are more important to stop it happening again. You might feel no ill will to H, but the moment this becomes friendship and putting yourself into that situation again you haven't really learnt much in what was an expensive lesson. You're not a better person for forgiving and letting them into your life again, you're overcompensating maybe to feel liked?
At some point we have to stop turning the other cheek and stop seeing the good in people. This doesn't mean anything other than keeping our circle for better people rather than charity places for narcissists and sociopaths (or any other kind of duplicity).
You only have do much time, money and life left. Spend it with better people.
I met a chick for a ONS and she wanted to do me in the back of my car in the parking lot. No kidding. A month later she was on the app still but now her bio said “she wants something real.”
i know. i was so fucking stupid, like actually. he told me at 3 AM and i wasn't even thinking straight and only when i said yes did i realise wtf was happening
The porn isn’t even the biggest red flag for me tbh. The fact that he needs to imagine someone else to orgasm during sex with you, and he thinks once or twice a week is so much sex with you that it’s a chore, is… very troubling. Porn aside, do you really want to be with someone who doesn’t find you sexually attractive? That’s probably a driving factor in why he seeks out porn so often. He isn’t satisfied in bed with you.
You deserve so much better than that. I hope you find happiness with someone who finds you beautiful and treats you with respect. This boy doesn’t deserve you.
Look, your brother isn’t toxic & he’s really all the family you’ve got. You don’t need to hang out & be best friends, but ignoring his calls? I don’t know why you’d do that. If the conversation veers to your parents, you can cut it off, but there’s no reason to not hear what’s going on with him & telling him what’s up with you. You can have a different relationship with your brother than you have had so far. It doesn’t have to be particularly intimate.
What I know is that even though I don’t have a great relationship with any of my siblings, we would all show up for each other if we were needed. There aren’t many people in the world who will always be your safety net – and whether we like it or not, most of the time, family is that.
Two Rules of thumb for any newbie polyamorous person: do NOT date someone just to date someone else. Do NOT accept any kind of polyamorous set up just because you want to date someone. Ie, in this case, dont date the ex just because you want to stay with your BF. Set aside the fact she insulted you and you don't like each other : are you even attracted to women? Are you even attracted to HER?
One set up that I could maybe see working would be a “V” type relationship, in which he dates you, and dates her, but you and her don't date each other (nb this is a very common poly configuration). But then again, you don't like her, she has a history of cheating, he's not the most respectful or straightforward with you, and all of you seem new to polyamory, so I'd pass if I were you
I mean yes I do that’s why. I was honest with his girlfriend when she called
My life got better when I removed my parents and they weren't nearly as bad as yours.
Not everyone seems capable of doing it but you need to at least recognize it's an option. Sometimes people we care about are only capable of bringing negativity into our lives now and it's worth stepping back.
Part of what made it better to leave is that I was reminded of the awful things they supported/represented whenever I was with them. That's not good for anybody. I'd prefer to not allow positive memories get swamped out by horrible nonsense. And at the same time, they can't claim me as being in their lives anymore. That may seem minor but it matters. There should be consequences for being a bad person and not having me in their lives is one of them.
Lots of guys moan and complain about condoms like this. DO NOT let them manipulate you into risking your health for their comfort.
That being said, BC has many benefits. Worth exploring with a doctor and making your own decision, rather than some man’s.
I mean it all sounds very nice not letting painful experiences define you.
But they do. No-one comes out of painful experiences unscathed, to an extent we can come out of these experiences better, but there will always be a negative element. For example; might be more empathetic, but find it difficult if we feel someone doesn't like us.
Understanding that is important, but learning from the experience and setting boundaries are more important to stop it happening again. You might feel no ill will to H, but the moment this becomes friendship and putting yourself into that situation again you haven't really learnt much in what was an expensive lesson. You're not a better person for forgiving and letting them into your life again, you're overcompensating maybe to feel liked?
At some point we have to stop turning the other cheek and stop seeing the good in people. This doesn't mean anything other than keeping our circle for better people rather than charity places for narcissists and sociopaths (or any other kind of duplicity).
You only have do much time, money and life left. Spend it with better people.
I met a chick for a ONS and she wanted to do me in the back of my car in the parking lot. No kidding. A month later she was on the app still but now her bio said “she wants something real.”
i know. i was so fucking stupid, like actually. he told me at 3 AM and i wasn't even thinking straight and only when i said yes did i realise wtf was happening
The porn isn’t even the biggest red flag for me tbh. The fact that he needs to imagine someone else to orgasm during sex with you, and he thinks once or twice a week is so much sex with you that it’s a chore, is… very troubling. Porn aside, do you really want to be with someone who doesn’t find you sexually attractive? That’s probably a driving factor in why he seeks out porn so often. He isn’t satisfied in bed with you.
You deserve so much better than that. I hope you find happiness with someone who finds you beautiful and treats you with respect. This boy doesn’t deserve you.
Look, your brother isn’t toxic & he’s really all the family you’ve got. You don’t need to hang out & be best friends, but ignoring his calls? I don’t know why you’d do that. If the conversation veers to your parents, you can cut it off, but there’s no reason to not hear what’s going on with him & telling him what’s up with you. You can have a different relationship with your brother than you have had so far. It doesn’t have to be particularly intimate.
What I know is that even though I don’t have a great relationship with any of my siblings, we would all show up for each other if we were needed. There aren’t many people in the world who will always be your safety net – and whether we like it or not, most of the time, family is that.
I think it’s foolish to just write him off.
I am doing that for awhile.
Based on what?
Two Rules of thumb for any newbie polyamorous person: do NOT date someone just to date someone else. Do NOT accept any kind of polyamorous set up just because you want to date someone. Ie, in this case, dont date the ex just because you want to stay with your BF. Set aside the fact she insulted you and you don't like each other : are you even attracted to women? Are you even attracted to HER?
One set up that I could maybe see working would be a “V” type relationship, in which he dates you, and dates her, but you and her don't date each other (nb this is a very common poly configuration). But then again, you don't like her, she has a history of cheating, he's not the most respectful or straightforward with you, and all of you seem new to polyamory, so I'd pass if I were you