Hmm, you write he probably would be glad to see you leave, he didn't see the need to text or call his whereabouts when you were expecting him, he fantasizes about others when having sex with you, plus the porn addiction. He may live with you, but this sounds to me like he's got at least one foot out the door. One day, you will look back on this relationship and be glad you left. You will feel so much better not being in competition, feeling like you aren't good enough, and the hypervigilance you likely feel without even realizing the extent and toll it's taking.
You are not rehoming the pup because you know very well that this man will take his anger out on you and/or your child. You know very well that he will get violent towards you once the dog (aka your boyfriends punching bag) is gone. That’s why you’re not doing what’s best for this animal. You can try to tell yourself that he’d never hit you, but you know that the only reason he’s not physically abusing YOU, is because he can physically abuse your dog.
but is she worth it with what shes done?
ill give you a hint
FUCK NO
Hmm, you write he probably would be glad to see you leave, he didn't see the need to text or call his whereabouts when you were expecting him, he fantasizes about others when having sex with you, plus the porn addiction. He may live with you, but this sounds to me like he's got at least one foot out the door. One day, you will look back on this relationship and be glad you left. You will feel so much better not being in competition, feeling like you aren't good enough, and the hypervigilance you likely feel without even realizing the extent and toll it's taking.
Man, you have to provide an update, OP!
You are not rehoming the pup because you know very well that this man will take his anger out on you and/or your child. You know very well that he will get violent towards you once the dog (aka your boyfriends punching bag) is gone. That’s why you’re not doing what’s best for this animal. You can try to tell yourself that he’d never hit you, but you know that the only reason he’s not physically abusing YOU, is because he can physically abuse your dog.