Throwaway because he uses reddit.
So as the title says, he' s terrified of getting sex with me. We' ve been together for almost 6 months now, and every time I attempt to get intimate (He' s never initiated), he always manages to deflect so smoothly, I don' t even realize at the moment. He' s fine along with kissing and cuddling, and about 50% of the time he just walks up and kisses me while I' m doing something, or just holds me to cuddle, in case I take it further, he' ll change the topic or maybe the mood.
Like if we' re watching a movie or even something, and I start feeling him up, he' ll turn it into play-wrestling, and after we' re done, I' m usually too exhausted or tired to have sex.
I' m cool in the event that he' s waiting till marriage or something, since other than this one thing, he' s an otherwise amazing person, but I just require him to say that! None of this weird deflection stuff that' s driving myself mad. If at any point, he' d said, " I don' t want to have sexual intercourse for X reason. " I' d have possibly accepted it, or broken up with him. I' ve been single long enough to find out how to look after myself, therefore it' s not like I want him to sleep beside me. We used to only find each other on weekends, but I haven' t attempted anything since he relocated in a month ago, mainly because I realized that I' g just get turned down, and I know how annoying it feels to be stressed into having sex.
Before anyone starts with the " Red flag girrrl, break up with him!!! " Or some junk, he' s a great sweetheart and person. He' ersus thoughtful, loving, smart (He' s working towards their PhD in biochemistry), as well as super attractive.
This weekend break, we both got kind of drunk (me more than him), and for whatever reason, he was looking so sexy, that I couldn' t resist myself. He kissed me, and rather than just kissing him back normally, I shoved my hand lower his pants. It was such as I electrocuted him. He or she jerked away, and the appearance on his face was certainly one of pure terror. And I didn' t really realize that till this morning. I just thought I accidentally scratched him in that area or something. He just quietly put away the drinks, and pushed me in order to bed (We usually sleep together, but just sleep). I passed out afterward, and I think he slept within the guest bedroom, but I don' t know because he' s really good on cleaning things up and I woke up around 1 evening with a super hazy storage.
The only reason I realized that that night was actual, was because he fucking flinched when I kissed him after lunch (He made great scrambled eggs). And he' s been a bit more, I guess wary? Around me when I hug him, or get into his lap in order to cuddle (Normal stuff that he was fine with). Like if my hand even goes near his thighs, he' ll shift away, or even hold my hands, or even something else.
And I don' t even know how to bring it upward, because it' s this kind of weird question. Do I simply ask him, " Why don' t you want to have sexual intercourse with me? " From previous experience with my exes, blunt questions usually don' t go over well, and I don' t want to tank this particular relationship over something so simple.
TLDR: I tried to have drunk sex along with bf this weekend, he or she freaked out, and now he' s being super careful whenever I touch him.
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