I’m 20F and my stepbrother is also 20M (he’s 5 months older). Our parents only got married a few years ago so we only lived in the same house for one year. We weren’t very close at all (more like awkward acquittances) but we went to the same college – it’s a small college near our town where basically everyone goes who stays in the area. We both are in the business school and so we’re in a lot of the same classes and activities so we ended up having similar friends.
We got closer as friends/siblings while in school, tho my best friend is my roommate. We were all at a bar last Saturday and my stepbrother was being really nice after a guy I was supposed to meet up with never showed. He kept buying me drinks and laughing at my jokes and I was a little drunk and I kissed him. He seemed really into it and we went back to his place and had sex. It was really good and he was complimenting me so much and I was kind of bummed for a minute that he’s not like some random guy but then the second it was over I left and haven’t answered his texts since and I’ve been nauseous ever since.
I literally feel like the grossest person in the world. Idk if I just initiated this because no one here has really liked me and I was feeling desperate or what. I feel so guilty and I don’t know if I should tell my mom or block him or what. I’m going back and forth between having an anxiety attack and remembering like sexual things about him (wtf). I don’t know if I should transfer even. Sorry for the rant I’m in such a tailspin
Should I cut him off? Tell my mom? Pretend it never happened and just distance myself? Try to go back to being friends?
Edit: thank you all for the great advice! Really talked me down last night haha. I texted him and we’re meeting up today to talk. Will update how it goes
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