Found out my (32M) wife (32F) did porn before we started dating. We’ve only been married a year so far.

I found out this week my wife did a few porn scenes before we met. She didn’t make a career out of it, she says it was something she wanted to try at the time and made some money to pay off a few bills. She said she doesn’t regret it but when I asked her why she never told me she said that she was afraid I’d think of her differently.

I saw the videos and I’m just wrecked inside. We weren’t dating, it was several years before we met. She was in college still.

I think what’s bothering me the most, and I know this isn’t probably right of me to feel this way but I do, is that she looks genuinely like she was having fun. There’s a degree of jealousy I have because they did things that she won’t do with me. I didn’t ask after seeing her videos but it came up before. When I saw her on the video it cut deep and caused some jealousy.

I love my wife, I’m not upset she experimented. She says she wasn’t pressured and she met the people through friends in college. I think she’s still Facebook friends with one of the guys.

I’m just shocked, slightly angry she never told me, and jealous at the same time. Wtf do I do with these emotions? She doesn’t want to talk about it, she thinks I’m being judgmental. But I can’t talk to my friends because all they’ll want to do is find the video.