You need to work through your insecurities. And while you're on it you need to practice communicating with your husband. He's entitled to his privacy. Don't take that away from him by going through his phone. If he has never done something to not be deserving of your trust, you should trust him.
Look, dude, so you pretended to be a random lady to another random lady who lives a bajillion miles away whom you will never talk to again in an anonymous text chat. There weren’t even any images or voices involved. Like yeah I can understand your boyfriend being hurt and upset — especially because you did lie — but like Jesus Christ in the grand scheme of things this is so low on the bar of cheating. If he leaves you that’s his decision I guess, but please don’t beat yourself up over this endlessly. Plus he probably won’t leave you. Just be honest in the future and either don’t act on this fetish or do it in a way your know your partner would be okay with.
he had punched a hole in the wall out of frustration.
What did you experience during your development that led to you seeing this and deciding “yup, this is gonna be a healthy relationship.”??????
Ruin his life???? He threatened murdering you!
You don't have to report him if you don't want. You don't need proof. You need supports and professional advice.
Yeah, it’a not like the birth place of pain au chocolat, croissants, eclairs and macarons will have sugar foods
You need to work through your insecurities. And while you're on it you need to practice communicating with your husband. He's entitled to his privacy. Don't take that away from him by going through his phone. If he has never done something to not be deserving of your trust, you should trust him.
Look, dude, so you pretended to be a random lady to another random lady who lives a bajillion miles away whom you will never talk to again in an anonymous text chat. There weren’t even any images or voices involved. Like yeah I can understand your boyfriend being hurt and upset — especially because you did lie — but like Jesus Christ in the grand scheme of things this is so low on the bar of cheating. If he leaves you that’s his decision I guess, but please don’t beat yourself up over this endlessly. Plus he probably won’t leave you. Just be honest in the future and either don’t act on this fetish or do it in a way your know your partner would be okay with.